Omg there's so many fuck problems. Problems like my mum and brother quarreling. Diana asking ME to make a fuck card for her fuck friend. Dad coming home drunk. FUCK IT. Omg fuck fuck fuck fuck fu k fuck fuck fuckfuckfuckfukfuck cheong ekdmxmansfmdmfndndndndn

Lovefool by the Cardigans

" miss atomic bomb, making out with the radio on. You gonna miss me when I'm gone, you gonna miss me when I'm goneee" Miss Atomic Bomb by the killers is real good. I dunno why it some how portrays alot of things to me. Anyways today been good! Went out in the morning to find Qianqi, had twister meal for breakfast. Been talking a little less today. Lesser than usual. So babe , please cheer up. :). Went to waterfront and omg the playground look so fun but it's under renovation. Met with Kiran later on, talk talk and went Lot 1 to find that Yuxian. Hahaha! Seeing him wear is white polo tee with his Levi's jeans, he looks stunning. Talk alot while eating, omg there's this waiter goddamm he looks so cute. Then we found out his name is Cat. And omy he's a girl. Yuxian is like really into his job which is good! It's fun seeing him work from outside. Omg if I got money I want to buy so many things with Kiran!

Nice song. Sometimes it's just about playing hard to get. Then again. Miss is another thing. Okay. Today I am motivated. Motivated not to let anything come in the way to my priorities. And by priorities I mean earning alot of fucking money. And in order to earn alot I need to get my studies right. I know it about to late to figure that out but better late than never right. Anyways what got me so motivated is this house. You see, today my family went to see this house. God the location is great and it's so fuckfuckfuckfukfuck big. Not mansion big but just very much bigger. There are six rooms inside, each room have their own toilet <-- that is what I feel is great. Really. Anyways the whole house is so big totally great for my family of 9 if you include the maid and the two dogs :) and the best part is there's this huge space beside the house ( cause it the corner lot ) and bro was saying make a swimming pool there. I don't think it will happen but the house is greattt! Well thing is it cost 1.35 Million. And it's like... If we want that house, mum has to closed her current deals and we have to sell away the current house which I really love too. See that's the problem. When you got money, you get whatever you want, you get good interior designers to design your house and live happily inside with you family. If Just life is great like this. Well it's not. So this made me motivated to actually study hard and well and earn alot of money for my family for Everything in the future. Okey Goodnighy. Oh and recently, I've been talking to Yuxian and omg he is such a good kid

Today is one of those days when you feel nothing. Thought of him, her and everyone else. The fuck is happening. So recently I heard Alot of people around me having all the cancer. God. There's this really really nice Uncle, he has liver cancer and he's like gonna die soon. Because why? Everything is going so well for him, he has God, a wonderful family, rich. The went for treatments in Columbia, KL. everyone thought he was going to be fine. Indeed he was, untill he went for some Chinese Medicine. Some stupid pills made everything worst again. Why is it all this China people want to make all this horrible pills and food to kill, have money blinded them, so many people are dying because of their selfishness. Mum said that uncle is Estimated to pass away within the next few weeks. I hope God makes a miracle. Today I thought about yesterday. Lately mum is being so angry, I don't really like it when she screams. I read articles online and they say that everytime you get angry the cancer cells in your body multiply. Everyone has cancer cells in their body, it's just how you eat and act that maintain the minimum amount of cancer cells in you. I see so many people more or less going to die because of cancer and I get real scare. Real scare that someone around me is going to die. Be it my mum or my siblings or even my relatives. That's when I notice I seldom talk about my father. Well I don't wanna lose him too. Throughout my life I never been really close to my dad, maybe because... I dunno it seems really awkward how I have nothing to say to him. Truth is my mum and dad ain't those normal parents you always see, those that grow old and love one another and go overseas with one another. My dad doesn't work for the family, he work for himself making my mum the breadwinner. That doesn't make me hate my dad because he treats me really nice among the other. But yeah we just not close as a family. I never been anywhere with him. All I can do sometimes is pop by and say Hi daddy 我爱你. My dad smokes alot and I hope he doesn't die.

Today was great! Ytd was great too! This is a productive happy life I never want to end. Anyways was weird but for the first time I watched Twilight with yuhan. This time round, going out with him and all, I no longer plan what I wanna say, I just look at him and say everything in my head, even the word Period . I wonder what I actually said but I swear I said the word period. Had fun eating manhattan's with him talk about people arnd us, talk alot more than usual. Cuddled in the cinema watching twilight. Holding hands gave a ecstasy to my mind. The show was great. Nuff said. Next post.

Good day. May not be to you but to me was the best

Life's bad when :
1. You have a pimple on your nose and have to order something from a cute boy
2. You whatsapp your boyf a super happy thing and.. Awhile later see double ticks beside it with no replies
3. Your brother fought wit his girlfriend and face black black arnd the house
4. You mum forgot what she promised
5. I feel fuckibg ugly
Ok enough byeeeee! If you're looking at this and smiling, you're not my friend.
HAHAHAAH

Did you know:
When you suddenly feel sad, it is because of your brain missing someone.
LOL I sound like a bitch. What a day. For the pass few days been longing for today to come, paranormal activity, hiding my eyes by staring at you. lol what is this. You know how they say the more you look forward to something that turns out to make you more disappointed. Not sure if its true to you but it sure does for me.
They say " if your future doesn't scare you then it's not a future" why exactly am I thinking of this I am not sure. But all I know is I don't really know what I wanna do. I don't want my future to actually be a decision of others i want it to be my choice that makes me happy with. The thought of all this makes my tummy grumble. All I know is I really want to Make alot alot of money ( WHO DOESN'T ) And I want my family to be fully well fed ( you know what I mean ) and to be honest I want to help stray animals and poor people, old people.

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even it leads no way.