Today is one of those days when you feel nothing. Thought of him, her and everyone else. The fuck is happening. So recently I heard Alot of people around me having all the cancer. God. There's this really really nice Uncle, he has liver cancer and he's like gonna die soon. Because why? Everything is going so well for him, he has God, a wonderful family, rich. The went for treatments in Columbia, KL. everyone thought he was going to be fine. Indeed he was, untill he went for some Chinese Medicine. Some stupid pills made everything worst again. Why is it all this China people want to make all this horrible pills and food to kill, have money blinded them, so many people are dying because of their selfishness. Mum said that uncle is Estimated to pass away within the next few weeks. I hope God makes a miracle. Today I thought about yesterday. Lately mum is being so angry, I don't really like it when she screams. I read articles online and they say that everytime you get angry the cancer cells in your body multiply. Everyone has cancer cells in their body, it's just how you eat and act that maintain the minimum amount of cancer cells in you. I see so many people more or less going to die because of cancer and I get real scare. Real scare that someone around me is going to die. Be it my mum or my siblings or even my relatives. That's when I notice I seldom talk about my father. Well I don't wanna lose him too. Throughout my life I never been really close to my dad, maybe because... I dunno it seems really awkward how I have nothing to say to him. Truth is my mum and dad ain't those normal parents you always see, those that grow old and love one another and go overseas with one another. My dad doesn't work for the family, he work for himself making my mum the breadwinner. That doesn't make me hate my dad because he treats me really nice among the other. But yeah we just not close as a family. I never been anywhere with him. All I can do sometimes is pop by and say Hi daddy 我爱你. My dad smokes alot and I hope he doesn't die.