You can't lose your mummy, Charley.

Mr Ratish say that everyone should always ask themselves " what am I grateful for today? " today I am grateful I have a friend who makes the effort to go home together. That I have the money to get my best friend a gift for her birthday. That i have friends around me that i can actually laugh and talk with. That everything is so good, everyone is happy. I hope Vivien and Diana is happy I hope Florence and Terence get Married cause I like them. Grateful that mum is happy and eating ice creams. Grateful that my dad isn't very drunk.

So the other day, I was reading this book by Mitch Albom. For one more day. I didn't finish it, but I read the first chapt. And it was talking about a man who is a drunkard most of the time after he's money got cheated. His wife and family kept a distant away from him. It sounded a little like my dad except the cheated part. Anyways what got him to think back about his life and his regrets was after his daughter's wedding which he was not invited to. He was only notified a week after her wedding with a picture of herself and her husband. He regretted not being a great husband, a better father, a real man. And it caught me thinking...

Today started out great went to the market to get breakfast for everyone at home.
Today ended horribly, my last few mins of 17 Feb 2013 ended terribly. I just remember my heart beating when you ask me that questions. I thought of all the things I want to say, all the things I have been wanting to say. 11:08 you called, you figure out it's not going to work out and said " go to sleep " my heart sank. 11:48 My mum got home I woke up from my 30+ mins sleep and thought of all the exciting things my mum would tell me. 11:48.. My mum storm into her room and scream and scream. My eyes open I didn't know what's happening. All I know is everyone was screaming. Dad was screaming mum was screaming. Brother was screaming. I screamed. Then a chair came up to the air. Then I know everyone left the room. And my mum said something. Sometimes I hope things go according to how they were when I imagine it happening in my head.