So today I was wondering. Sometimes talking to your family about the things that happened on that day is a fun thing to do, but when you're the only one doing the talking and having no idea if anyone in the car gives a damn, that's shitty. Same goes to school, I love doing reflections and I think that's the only time I get to express what I think about things, but if the school is going to give us all the reflection worksheets but don't ever read or give a shit about it, then why bother writing. It made my feel a little less enthusiastic about sharing my thoughts with people nowadays.

Went to the SWAMI home today and yeah it was great there. Not great great Ofcourse. But yeah same old same old you get to reflect alot about things. I feel how time could really bring down people. Some elderly are really happy oldies and tell you all the things they do there and boast about how cool they are. I like this auntie particularly, we can't really communicate but she was able to show we hand signs and we just laugh with each other for awhile, colouring stuff and all. And there was this Indian Auntie, she kept saying she's hungry. For the whole 2 hours there, for 3/4 of the time all I heard her groan and shout about is " HUNGRY" in Malay. Untill the last 30 mins when her dinner was served, I finally heard her say, sleep and bye. It's not alot, but I sure hope that deep down she is very happy today.
Today I bought her present for Elly, kinda feel bad because previously kinda lie and say I bought it already. But yeah I love it when I get present for people, and it would totally make me feel happier if they liked my present.
Today I wonder why friends turn out to be how they don't use to be. How two unclose people who do not know each other could hate one another. How a friend could out something just to get higher up the ladder. If you know what I mean